Kicking Against the Prick

If I follow my true nature, I am a free individual, spontaneous, open, trusting, and unencumbered. As I have grown and matured, my free will has been tempered, shaped and tamed by my desire to be an adult, adhere to Christian principles, become a law abiding good citizen, and an ideal employee and person. Discipline and consistency is something I struggle with daily. For example, I rarely wake up at the same time every day, my morning routine varies most days, and although I always shower and brush my teeth, the order in which they occur may change each day. Creating a routine, doing anything every week, let alone everyday, is something I struggle with. My good friend Dwight once remarked that routines help to alleviate stress and give us a smoother path to follow. I have habits, good and bad. When attempting to develop a new habit, I have very rarely made it through the 21 days the medical records say is necessary to create a new one. Which is why I rarely take vitamins (don't remember to take them each day) and almost never know what I'm going to wear before the day I need to wear it. I won't go as far as to say I don't have any routine in my life, but even my routine things happen unroutinely. This practice of "kicking against the prick" hasn't always served my best interest over the years. Lately, the Holy Spirit is challenging me on being, not appearing. Looking in the mirror I have some blemishes that I need to tend to so I can have a "clear" face when its time for me to shine. So I'm taking a challenge and I'm starting with discipline and consistency. Tonight, I commit to blogging every day for 30 days about something. I'm also committing to read one chapter a day for 30 days. I commit to taking my vitamins everyday. I'm committing to prayer and studying the Word. Finally, I'm committing to exercising everyday for 30 days. Talk about piling it on, I am skeptical even as I type of the results. I know I can, so I will. It is my prayer that perhaps by developing a routine and some discipline in these areas, it will transfer into other areas of my life. So here goes... Gosh! I'll need your prayers.